Almost exactly one year ago, I had one of my favorite little spiritual experiences.
Every Monday, I would write all my posts for the week for this account.
But this time, I wrote Monday’s post, I wrote Tuesday’s post… and then my mind went blank.
I could tell it wasn’t just writer’s block.
It was a true stupor of thought. And I literally could not think about any insights from the scriptures to share.
I started to pray. The time I had set aside was slowly ticking away.
I started to get frustrated. “I’m trying to be more organized and use my time more wisely so that I’m not multitasking so much! Please can you help unblock my mind?” I pleaded to Heaven.
I kept asking for that inspiration to come. Why wasn’t He answering my prayers?
And yet, I still couldn’t write.
It was a really weird experience, and it made a big impression in my mind.
And then, on a week in March 2020 that I’m sure you all remember, the world started to shut down that Wednesday.
By Thursday, everything had changed.
I sat down to write the remainder of my posts for the week, and my ideas and thoughts were bubbling over the surface. I couldn’t write fast enough to contain the messages from my heart and the scriptures.
When I finally had a chance to ponder on this situation, I had a powerful and clear thought come to my mind.
“You were not doing anything wrong on Monday. I wasn’t ignoring you. You just had to wait until something outside of your control happened before it all made sense.”
I just had to wait.
There was no giant spiritual lesson or divine ignorance.
It was literally just that the world hadn’t shut down yet.
This was so powerful to me because it was one of the most poignant times when I realized how little I know compared to God.
I was trying to counsel God, to make Him give me in the inspiration I usually received.
“Seek not to counsel your God.” D&C 22:4
I thought He wasn’t listening to me.
But in reality, I didn’t even know what I didn’t even know.
Sometimes, we just have to wait for other things to happen before we can receive a clear answer for our prayers.
God knows what He is doing.
Happy Studying!
-Cali Black
12 Responses
I needed this today. My husband and I are getting older; and frequently think it is time to move into a smaller place with less acreage. I keep praying for guidance; and have not received an answer; and in my mind I knew it just isn’t time yet!! When I read your post the answer became very clear, and I knew it was the answer I was waiting for; something has to happen first. I will keep praying for an answer, but with more patience. I know we will know what to do when the time comes because Heavenly Father will tell us.
Such great insight. Your answer will come!
This is so beautiful. I have learned a lot in the waiting. It’s not easy, but absolutely necessary
It certainly is hard but good to remember.
You always get a better perspective on the scriptures. Thanks ????????????
You’re welcome!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I am always touched, inspired and learning.
I’m glad you enjoy them.
Just want you to know that I love your insights, authenticity, and faith-filled expressions of truth. You have a gift for writing, but even more, you write with the Spirit. Thank you!
You’re so welcome!
love it
Thank you! <3